Monday, July 13, 2009

Baby Charlie...

It's only been 6 days but I can't imagine life without Charlie. I think he is going to be my laid back little boy...putting a little balance in a household full of high demanding girls. He has already watched many hours of baseball with Brandon.

Sophie is becoming more gentle with him. At first, she just wanted to poke, bite, hit or otherwise torture him. But she doesn't do it to be mean. She just doesn't know how to act around him.

Elsa, on the other hand, thinks he is her babydoll. She is so gentle, sweet and caring with him. She wants to hold him, feed him, kiss him and just help out in any way she can.

Even Haley has bonded with him. She chose to hang out with us at the hospital instead of going back home. She was with us when we decided to check out of the hospital a day early and wanted to sit in the back seat with him on the way home.

He just completes our family when I thought there was no more room to grow. It is going to be an exhausting and demanding few years. I am not quite sure if I am ready for the challenge and I am sure there will be days when I lay down at night and wonder how I got through the day. One day at a time.
















Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Introducing...

Charles Henry Coleman II
"Charlie"
8 lbs 10 oz
21 inches
Born 9:47am
We are all doing absolutely wonderful!!!








Full Moon

The moon was full last night and the baby didn't feel like waiting until 7:30 for the inducement. He thought 3am would be a better start time so we should meet him very soon.

Thursday, July 02, 2009

Happy Birthday NaNaw...

Sophie decided to give NaNaw (Grandma Debbie) the best birthday present ever. If you know NaNaw, you would know how much she loves and cares about Sophie. They have a special bond.

While NaNaw was playing with Sophie in her toy closet, Sophie pointed to the top shelf and said animal. She was pointing to her toy farmhouse with the animals inside. I was in the other room and heard it clear as day. Sophie just said her first 3 syllable word!!! She barely even says a 2 syllable word. Plus, she has never even attempted to say animal before and she used the word appropriately.

When Brandon got home from work, we were telling him the story and she repeated it again for him...several times. I honestly don't know if I would have believed it if I didn't hear it myself. It wasn't the clearest sound pronunciation but it was close.

Sophie was in a goofy mood tonight. I love it when she is like that. Full of laughter and giggles. She has become quite the mischievous one. Brandon showed her how to get water out of the water dispenser on the refrigerator door. She has seen us do this a million times but has never attempted to do it herself. As soon as I saw it, I thought BIG MISTAKE. So a few seconds later, she takes her cup over, fills it up with water (let me remind you that she is in a VERY GOOFY mood) and executes it perfectly. But as she is walking away, giggling her little butt off and holding the cup up in the air with only one hand, she is spilling it everywhere. And all we can do is laugh. She gets it. She is learning. She is happy.

And this is only one of many stories tonight. She was up to many crazy antics...giggling and laughing the entire time.

By the way, pre-surgery she would have EXTREME meltdowns if she spilt just a drop of water on her when she was drinking out of a cup or if she dropped a piece of food on the ground. And I seriously have no idea why she was like that. I tried my hardest to make it seem like it was no big deal. To the point where I would drop things and laugh just to show her it was okay. Nothing worked. She could not stand the idea of anything spilling.

So, now she is the complete opposite. I will take giggles over meltdowns any day.

Happy Birthday NaNaw!!! Thanks for spending the day with us.

Brand vs Generic...

I know there has been a lot of discussion lately regarding brand name anti-epileptic drugs versus generic. I even had a conversation about this with our pharmacist. So I made the decision to have Sophie on the brand name Depakene and Dilantin.

But what I didn't know about our prescription drug insurance policy...

There are two lines in which a doctor can sign a prescription. One line states "substitution permitted" and the other states "dispense as written".

So even though our neurologist wrote the prescription for brand name Depakene and Dilantin, he signed the line that stated "substitution permitted". When I dropped off the prescription, I requested for there to be no substitution.

Doesn't sound like a big deal...until the price is given...$140.12 a month for brand name Depakene. So I called our insurance company to find out what our out-of-pocket maximum is for the year.

To only find out that if our neurologist had signed the line "dispense as written", it would only cost us $70.06 a month for brand name Depakene. A savings of $840.72 a year. So I kindly called our neurologist and requested that he send in a new prescription with it signed "dispense as written".

Considering all that Sophie has been through to get to where she is at now...this is the least I can do for her.

Monday, June 29, 2009

A new do...

A few weeks ago, Amanda (Haley's mom) came over to give Sophie a haircut. I just couldn't imagine having to take her to a salon and having to explain everything. I love it. Even if it wasn't for the shaved area. It makes her look older...not my baby girl anymore. Well, she really hasn't been ever since Elsa was born. I was amazed that once Elsa was born, Sophie instantly looked different to me. I wonder what I will think of Elsa once the baby boy is born. I will be induced on July 7th if he doesn't get here sooner. Which I really doubt he will. After all I have been through and he is still not showing any signs of coming anytime soon...I think he is content in there.

Sophie is doing wonderfully (except when it comes to sleeping at night...a whole other post). She is getting stronger everyday. And she laughs SOOOOO much. At everything and anything. I LOVE it. She has never laughed like that before. She is just having so much fun.

We all had a wonderful and productive weekend. We got to spend time with Brandon's relatives from Kansas which is always so much fun. Especially with Sophie being so much more interactive with people. We all went swimming and I was brave enough to let Sophie go down one of the kiddie slides (this is the second time we have been swimming since the surgery...the first time I was way too nervous to let her go down the tiniest slide...too scared she would hit her head somehow). My parents took the girls on Saturday so we could get all the rooms rearranged and ready for the new baby. A much bigger task than I thought it would be since all the kids ended up in a different bedroom. All that is left to do is paint. But it felt so good to clean out the closets and rearrange everything. Bye bye clutter and hello Goodwill. Grandma Debbie came over today and I got to catch up on some much needed sleep...which I should be doing at the moment.
















Wednesday, June 24, 2009

All about Sophie...

A post dedicated to all the new things that Sophie is doing...26 days post-op...26 wonderful SEIZURE FREE days!!!

Cognitively...

She is beyond what she was doing before the surgery. She is doing better than what anyone would have ever expected. She is saying new words all the time. She is using words appropriately. Instead of just crying when we walk into the building where she gets private therapy, she now points to the door and says "byebye" and "door". In general, she just talks more. Requesting things using words instead of just pointing.

She is very expressive in other ways. She laughs a lot. I think she actually "gets it" when someone does something funny...especially when it is Elsa. She is more alert and interactive. She makes a lot of eye contact and she really seems to check things out.

She is starting to count but I don't think she quite understands it. If I say "one", she will say "two" and "three".

Most of all, it's the little things that she does that I notice the most. Like the other day, when she walked over the vent on the floor. She stepped back, bent down, touched it and stood back up. It was like she noticed it for the first time.

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Physically...

She is gaining her strength back but she has some work to do. She mostly lacks endurance. It is all just a matter of time. Her walking is getting more stable. She is starting to adjust to her right peripheral vision cut in both eyes.

Today was the first time she was able to climb into bed. But she refuses to walk up the steps to the second floor. Though, she is okay with walking up a few steps to get into the house and the small staircase at therapy.

The more tired she is, the less she uses her right hand. That is where I see the most deficit in her physically...the use of her right hand. Though, she is doing phenomenal with her left hand. She is independently using a fork and spoon on a consistent basis. She has never self fed herself like that before.

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I've tried to explain all the new things she is doing. There really is so much more. So much more than "what" she is doing. It really is just that look in her eye. You notice things clicking. Things make much more sense to her. She truly understands what I say to her. If I say something she doesn't want me to do, she will get upset as the words come out of my mouth. Before, she actually had to see the action to fully understand what was about to happen.

And for whatever reason, she has become much more attached to me. It's like she is finally going through the whole separation anxiety stage.

She has a new cry. That's kind of weird. It is a very high-pitched, scream-like kind of cry. Maybe she realizes I jump quicker when she cries like that...hmmm I wonder.

No matter what it is...it has all been wonderful. Seeing her change. Seeing her grow. And enjoying every single minute of it.

A smooth transition...

We are so incredibly grateful and thankful for everyone who made us dinner, came to visit, called to check in on us, sent an e-mail or posted a comment since we have been home. When we were leaving the hospital, I was incredibly scared to be at home alone with Sophie and Elsa. I didn't know if I would have to energy to do it. But with everyone's support, our first week home went incredibly well. So well, that Brandon said I was being very spoiled. Which was so true. As the days go on and the more stable Sophie becomes, the easier it is getting.

Thank you Teresa (our neighbor across the street) for bringing us dinner. Thank you Robert (Brandon's boss) and his wife, Kelli, for bringing us dinner and keeping us company...we enjoyed the beautiful evening with you and your little girl, Mariella. Thank you Kelly (a neighbor that lives down the street) for bringing us several dinners to stock our freezer for when the new baby comes.

So THANK YOU all for your support.

All about preschool...

Last week, Sophie had her first somewhat full week back to school. Her normal schedule is Monday through Thursday mornings for 3 hours. She had a full day on Monday and then we took Tuesday off to make sure she was well rested for a full day of therapy on Wednesday. Unfortunately, we were all a little too well rested as we overslept and Sophie was about an hour late for school. On Thursday, she seemed to have a wonderful day. She was full of smiles and was very talkative when I came to pick her up. Miss Lisa (a paraeducator in her classroom during the regular school year) came to see her. Miss Cherie (her teacher) and Miss Sharon (another paraeducator) are in her classroom during the regular school year as well as in the summer. I think it helps A LOT for Sophie to get back into her routine with having the same classroom and seeing familiar faces. Miss Brandi (her one-on-one paraprofessional) is off for the summer so Miss Marilyn (a school nurse from another school in the district that is off for the summer) is taking her place.

Needless to say, Sophie is in very capable hands. I LOVE Sophie's preschool. I feel so comfortable having her there. I am so thankful for her teacher, paraeducators, paraprofessionals and therapists. It takes a very patient and caring person to not only work with preschoolers but those with special needs. When I spent the day with Sophie at her preschool a few weeks back, I was exhausted when I left. Not because of Sophie, she did great. But from watching the amount of energy it takes to keep the routine flowing in such a smooth manner and knowing the little tidbits of each child to help them reach their full potential. THANK YOU to all of you.


I can't believe she went back to school ONLY 17 days after having brain surgery. It is quite amazing. She is doing so incredibly well.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

These moments...

(Note: I wrote this on Saturday evening but never got around to posting it until today so "today" and "tonight" is referring to Saturday.)

Are the ones I think I will remember forever. Sometimes I feel like these moments are not real. That this is not my life. Because I can't believe this day is here. Life feels so normal. No...much better than normal. I am on a high. Brandon looked at me tonight with happiness radiating from him and said I love our new life. Haley is with us today. Our lives feel so complete. I never want this feeling to end. Pure joy.

Our bedtime routine for our youngest girls has always been the same. But tonight it felt so different. It felt extra special...seeing Sophie's eyes light up like I have never seen them before. A smile on her face that was so pure. Part of our routine is letting Sophie and Elsa dance around naked after bath time (but only for a short bit to avoid the peepee messes and then we gradually get them in their diapers and PJs).

Brandon pulls them out of the tub and wraps a towel around them and hands them off to me. Where I snuggle with them in bed. Then he turns on the music...loud. Big smiles appear on their faces and you can see the excitement.

Tonight, Brandon swooped Sophie off the bed. Her eyes sparkled as he twirled her around. I felt like it was happening in slow motion as I watched them dance and bounce around.

I am amazed that JUST 2 weeks ago, Sophie was 1 day post-op from major brain surgery. That today is 2 weeks of seizure freedom. That today she is up and walking around. That today she is saying more words than she was before surgery. That 2 weeks ago marks a new beginning for Sophie...a new world has opened up to her. A world that is much clearer.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

A great substitution...

Instead of waking up in the middle of the night with a cluster of seizures...

Sophie now wakes up babbling nonstop.

It was 3am but it didn't matter. The sweet sound of her voice was mesmerizing. I only wish I had my video camera to catch the sounds but I didn't want to do anything to distract her.

She started off by saying "BarBarBarBarBarBar....neeeeeee". She always said "Bar" for Barney (her most beloved thing to watch on TV). And she always said "knee" when naming body parts. I have worked with her for months trying to get her to put the sounds together but she couldn't...until the other night.

Then she started to put all kinds of sounds together. Like "MaMaMaMaMaMa....meeeeeee" and "DaDaDaDaDaDa....meeeeeee". This went on for at least 30 minutes.

Right before she fell back asleep, she said "Bar....nee". Just a short pause between the 2 syllables. Hmmm...I wonder what she was dreaming about.

Day 13...Still NO SEIZURES!!!

Yesterday, Uncle Jason came over to watch Elsa so I could take Sophie to preschool. Later that afternoon, Grandma Debbie came over to play with the girls until late that night. Then that evening, Stephanie brought us dinner. This morning, Aunt Colette came over to watch Elsa so I could take Sophie to therapy and also to play with the girls. Later this afternoon, Jake came over to play with the girls and bring us dinner. THANK YOU all for being here for us.

No stopping her...

Sophie stood up by herself today!!!

She was sitting in the middle of the sunroom (more like her playroom since it is overtaken by toys) and pushed herself to a stand and walked right over to me with a HUGE smile on her face. She was so proud of herself.

It is only a matter of days now that she will be doing MORE than she was doing before surgery. She is already there cognitively but still a little weak physically.

She amazes me. Less than 2 weeks ago, she had a majority of her left hemisphere of her brain removed!!! Less than 2 weeks ago!!! How is that possible?!?!

Back to school...

Yesterday, Sophie had her first day back at preschool through our local school district. We decided for her to go back on Wednesday because that is the day she gets speech, occupational and physical therapy. I wanted her therapists to be able to evaluate her and get their thoughts along with her teacher's thoughts on going back to school.

She had an amazing day. I was surprised by her endurance. We were only going to stay for half a day but we ended up staying the entire 3 hours.

She remembered her routine and was even showing me around the classroom. There was a moment when we got back from speech therapy that her classroom was empty. Her classroom is set up where they have different activities in different areas of the room. She walked up to one table in particular and said "draw". Sure enough, it was the table they draw at because there was all kinds of art supplies right next to it.

She got excited for snack time and had no problems walking down the long hallway to wash her hands in the bathroom...the same hallway she was too tired to walk down after physical therapy.

Her occupational therapist worked with her in the classroom during snack time. The way that girl eats nowadays....you would think I was starving her. She is so motivated by food and perks up every time I say the word "eat". Trust me...I feed her plenty and even switched her to whole milk to get some meat back on her bones. She lost 3 pounds in the hospital which may not sound like a lot but that is 10% of her body weight.

So by the end of the day, we decided that she will go back to school full-time (4 days a week for 3 hours a day) next week and will have a one-on-one aide that is a nurse.